As this semester has rolled by and students are busy with big projects, tests, and essays, a certain sense of stress and worry has fallen upon me. Yes, I am finding piles upon piles of work filling my assignment notebook and end of the year ceremonies, meetings, and seminars to attend. However, I am most concerned with my own students in the “Writer’s Seminar”, an introductory course to the basics and fundamental of college writing.
I am obligated to meet with the students every week as they build upon the four projects that make up the entirety of their end of the year portfolio. The projects vary from creative writing to videos to summaries to history papers. Many students have not reacted positively to some of these assignments, which has made it hard for me to explain the benefit of the coursework and relate how a Writing Colleague, through the use of facilitative questioning, can reinforce the conceptual ideas in class that are supposed to be reflected in the diverse set of projects. This may have been the down fall from the beginning of the semester.
For this reason, much like Bonnie, I go over the same assignments with students about three to four times, hoping they continue to be prepared with new progress and insight into their writing assignments. But, as most portfolio-based classes go, some of the students-mostly freshman aside from the one sophomore- have come to me with fewer and fewer questions. For example: Student one approaches the table. Student one sits down. Student one whips out his or her paper. Student one slaps it on the table in front of me. Student one asks, “What should I work on?”
This situation, in exaggeration, is the reoccurring reality I have encountered. I feel I have put in a lot of effort, sending out emails on writing tips every other week, weekly reminders of meetings, and setting up office hours so students can come and meet with me if they need further help brainstorming, outlining, forming a thesis, or other such elements of the basic essay. I have been flexible and I have been pushy; I allow them to reschedule in hopes they will meet me and give them suggestions and using facilitative questioning when necessary to push the student, even though I was told I should merely be directing them to such guides as “The Every Day Writer” and pushing the initiative on them.
I feel my own experience taking the same class my freshman year has been insightful and has given me a much easier time helping them, and I do feel like to some extent I am reaching some of these students through which they have thanked me and taken away with them certain ideas and strategies to write better, to formulate a thesis, and applying their understanding to such aspects of writing like unity, coherency, transition, fluidity, and summarization.
However, there are a number of students who don’t show up for many meetings or are careless in preparation. They tell me they wish they didn’t meet with me every week and that they are confident in their writing abilities. They even shrug me off or don’t care to meet with me. This hurts, as I feel like I have failed. I struggle with leaving behind the personal connections with students and realizing that I cannot reach out and help students with their writing if they do not want to work with me on their writing. I am worried that I am not reaching some of the students or am not being helpful because they give me little in return.
When I brought this up with the professor, he reassured that he thought I had done an excellent job and patted me on the back, explaining his acknowledgement of the involvement I have endured in the placement. However the professor told me again, like he did in the beginning of the semester, “You can bring a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink.” I took this into consideration, recognizing the sad fact that I can’t do anything more than sit down in the café and be willing, engaging, and helpful. I just want that reinforcement that I am making a difference, I am making progress. However, it doesn’t feel that way as of late.
I just hope that they are aware of the opportunity to pursuer their writing with me and understand their identity as a writer; their own strengths and weaknesses and the basic formality of college writing from this class and the weekly meetings with me. Hopefully they do not think it was a waste of time, considering how much we meet.
I just hope they are getting it.
Does anyone else feel this way? If so, have you talked to the professor or gotten feedback from students? Has anyone found any alternate strategies to reaching out to students who may not enjoy nor care to engage in the meetings?